A Silent Awakening

I remember when a child (what I now know as) being in different states of meditation. Pure being-ness, untouched thoughts… untainted.. expanded, high quality of clarity, openness. Only back then, without name or a label.

Somewhere in between now and then, personality took shape. Many external influences added to that personal ‘make-up’, you know, the cultural differences in upbringing, play-school, friends, education. The different levels of growth during a touchy-teenage phase from ‘no-one in the world understands me’ and ‘knowing it all’ (ha!) to becoming a young adult. The new sensations exploring sexuality. Falling in and out of love, or lost in the fantasy of it! The first home, job, choosing a career. The make or break in friendships and relationships. The varying insecurities of “Do I look fat in this dress?” to those stolen moments in time worrying about bills, worrying about this and that. Figuring and learning often through making mistakes, the traumas that arise… and then, identifying with these influences as reality. All this and more before social media even began. What a distraction from my being-ness!

Back to those earlier years, I remember listening to the sound of motorcars that would speed by, listening, how sound sped out of utter silence only to disappear back into its silence again. The sound itself amplifying more silence: a pure, untouched awareness - sense and feeling - of deep peace expanding beyond my physical outline. Simply by listening, as sound comes and goes, drifting in and out of the silent self. Now as a meditator, I understand the sound of the motorcar-effect having pushed my hearing beyond its physical margins expanding awareness. Created a kind of ‘stepping back’, the same way as watching thoughts that come and go, where there sits a silence in-between, a mental void, before and after EVERY single one.

And life being the funny way it is, in that we are born with true nature, which is pure bliss and unconditional thought, later develops a personality (based on whatever life experiences) good, bad, happy, sad, see-saw duality of thought and emotion presenting issues, challenges, pressures, stress, tension, depression only to then all be undone by our true nature, or what I now know as or find and experience in meditation.

Meditation can be so powerful in removing conditions of a disturbed, distracted, unbalanced or simply, the over-thinking mind. Sitting in a correct position, for example, a pyramid shape helps lift energy while using the mind to apply simple exercises - preventing a re-occurring wayward thinking - are both the set-up and preparation to cultivate meditative states. At some point the mind falls somewhere in between the physical world and the unknown, and it is here where the over thinking & fighting thoughts dissolve, a new mind arises to intensify and bring forward its effect. Silence. Just as a new born baby awakens with fresh eyes, free from tensions and stress.

Work hard and don't give up with this, you’ll return back to that inherent bliss inside, happy or sad there always ALWAYS exists, the underlying silence, state of being-ness.

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